January 18th, 2019

Good Morning House… Jan 18/19

We are doing a lesson on risk taking and the goal of you has never felt risky. I think when the time comes to dive into the details, I might have risky moments, but the whole spirit of what I’m trying to create does not feel risky.

I love the idea of feeling the spirit in everything I do. I also have the feeling I’m going to have to channel the spirit of my mum on the rest of my journey. Even today she wasn’t thinking of herself. She can barely walk and has broken her arm and she was asking about others. This is very interesting because in everyday life she would actually turn most things onto her… I find I am the same way… but when it is difficult, stressful or something very real, she is thinking of others … I don’t talk about or feel sorry for myself because..

My mum is sick

My husband is sick

Did sell enough tickets last year, didn’t tell anyone.    It is so real

I’m a little confused about where this is going but there is something there… don’t need the attention when it is really real or if I have dis-ease about it. Seems like I complain or acknowledge the things that don’t really matter. Mum will love you as much as I do.

Love, Me

Thank-you Jen Arron for basically describing what is happening to me. I will buy a piece to put in the Good Morning House… be prepare house for a beautiful collection of art! Marjorie’s fox…a piece from Deb Farquharson, Jen Aaron, Alison…it is coming…

Thank-you Catherine for clarity on what is happening…

These things, my mum, Steve, and ticket sales are not stopping me from moving forward they are only strengthening me. My mum is making me stronger. I’m taking ownership of what I need to do. I will stand in the middle of my show and text her a picture of all the people there from the stairs. I will send her a photo of Andre and me… I will let her know she must keep going because I am a part of her. She pushed through so many terror barriers… she challenged herself. She always stood up… and I’m sorry to say that my dad didn’t. I need to go Monday and see her.

Love, Me